I came across the following blog post response while I was doing some research. I was grabbed by the writers honesty with herself and, well, by writing it in a public space, her honesty with anyone who reads it.
Take a minute to read what Jodi Ann had to say about denial…
Denial Got Me Here
I was thinking about how I wanted to have pictures so I can look back at where I came from. But then I thought: “How did I get there?” As I was running today (my first 3 minutes straight ever), I felt like I couldn’t do it. I started talking myself out of running. “I can’t do this, I’ve never been able to do this. I’m too tired. I hurt too much.” Then I thought to myself “What hurts exactly?” My knees? Yes, they do hurt, but no more than they did last week. I can’t breathe? Yes, my breathing is labored, but all in all I am still breathing at a quite regular pace. I was ruining it for myself. I was trying to count seconds, I was giving up on myself. That was when the light went off. I was in denial. I was denying that I had worked up to this point. I CAN do this, there is no real reason why not.
After I pushed through that run, I began thinking. I got here because of denial. I was in denial about my weight. I would compare myself to others and say: “It’s not so bad” or “I’m just having a bad day.” When it came to the foods I would eat I would think “I don’t know how to cook healthy.” or “This one burger isn’t going to hurt me.” “I will quit smoking when I’m ready, I still have time.” and “My habit isn’t so bad, I’ve seen worse.” I have been in denial a long time. Well now I see myself. Overweight, but getting skinnier, and unhealthy, but getting healthier.
I KNOW what brought me here and now I know I am not going to DENY myself the right to be the Jodi Ann I want to be anymore.
What a great attitude to have at the beginning of your own journey.
Jodi has decided to transform herself into the person she wants to be by allowing it to happen. She is doing one of the most important things that you can do for you own success. She is being HONEST with herself and what got her where she is.
You don’t gain weight by eating healthy and nutritious foods. You don’t get a body that you become ashamed of by taking complete care of yourself. You don’t make excuses for yourself if you have nothing to be making excuses for.
I read Jodi’s words, but heard my own voice. It was me writing that same story. It was me making those same excuses. It was me lying to myself for so many years.
There was no way that I was ever going to lose my teenage weight by being less than honest with myself. There was no way I was ever going to lose pregnancy weight by being less than satisfied with where I was. The worst thing I could ever do was accept less than I believed I deserved. It took a long time to mentally decide that I deserved to where I wanted. It took even longer to do the work required to get there…but is it ever worth it!!
So, where are you? Are you where you want to be?
What got you where you are and what is going to get where you want to be?
No matter how you got where you are…you can get where you want to be. It starts with a choice. It gets supported with action and cemented with commitment.
Way to go Jodi Ann! Good for you and I’m cheering for you!!
Here is some motivation for your Monday morning.